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jesus christ, this is pathetic
Jun. 21st, 2003 11:19 amA confession: I have NO FUCKING CLUE what my budget is. Have sat here all morning trying to run numbers in hopes of answering the question how much lower do I need my rent to be next year. The problem is that I can dutifully calculate year-to-date and monthly average costs for rent, utilities, cash, credit card, etc, according to which I should *right now* be earning a non-trivial bit more than I'm spending, which according to my bank statements is simply not true. So it does me no good at all to say okay, I'll be taking a $4800/year pay cut, cutting $120 off my rent/month would solve 30% of that, since I can't make any sense of the numbers now. Which is so insanely frustrating... I mean, I think of myself as competent at this kind of thing, why can I not figure out where all that money is going?
And of course, what am I going to do but give up and go spend more money on an expensive hardbound book and dinner at a fancy restaurant. But... but... I swear, it looks like I should be able to do that... ::bangs head on keyboard::
And of course, what am I going to do but give up and go spend more money on an expensive hardbound book and dinner at a fancy restaurant. But... but... I swear, it looks like I should be able to do that... ::bangs head on keyboard::
